Feelings... Who needs 'em?

You’ve probably heard, “It’s better to hurt, than to feel nothing at all,” or at least some variation of that. But, I’m wondering if it really is better. You see, I usually try to be “in-touch” with my feelings. If I’m happy, I’m happy. If I’m depressed, I’m depressed. I feel it out until I get to the next feeling, until my insides move on. But if someone asked me how I’m feeling right now, I’d say….. nothing. I’ve gone through a whirlwind of emotions over the last few months, but now, it seems like they’re over. It’s like, I’m tired, run-down. Like it’s not worth it to feel anymore. Maybe feeling takes too much work. Maybe it is better to feel nothing at all. Or maybe I’ve finally met a problem that wasn’t as easily solved as all the rest. It seems I must deal with whole new levels of maturity and adulthood. And my mind would like a break because it’s about to explode. Emotion overload perhaps.


April Palmer (a cool lady at my church) and I got to have a pretty good conversation the other day. We talked of my life really. College, scholarships, rommates, classes, musical instruments. We didn’t go so deep (since we don’t know each other too well, and we didn’t have that much time), but I found myself so joyous because of our conversation. It wasn’t that I was the main point of the conversation, but that I was having a conversation with someone that I didn’t know very well. That we were getting to know each other, and it was easy! She was interested in my life, and she had several stories to tell that related to my present situation in life. It was such great fun that I still cant stop thinking about it.

So, I suppose I’m not emotionless. Maybe just stronger (even). Stronger because I can choose when to feel and when not to. I can choose what’s worth thinking about, and what’s not. That could come back to bite me. Or it could be something like this… “

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.


Happiness is a hard concept to understand. I believe that I am not called, or entitled to, a life of happiness by the world’s standards. But, happiness, is also relative. If you are a Christian, then Jesus IS your happiness. So, in that case, I AM called to a life of happiness, because I AM called to live a life for Him. Jesus is my happiness, my life, my everything.

Project Live: Days 9-12

Failed again for Friday and Saturday (May, 13 and May 14)! I can't remember what happened on Friday, so I'll put a picture from My friend Ivy Brightwell's photography gallery. My friend Ivy is an incredible photographer. This is a picture from her self-portrait album for school:

May, 13 2011

 Beautiful person inside and out and so much talent!!!! Love :)


And, Saturday, my brother and sisters randomly decided to go skating. We wanted to have fun and we did. It was great! However, I was too caught up in the moment to remember to take a pic. So, here's a pic of some people skating.

May 14, 2011

 
Just imagine these people laughing as they skate at a snail's pace because they keep falling over each other.... then you've got us! :) Great fun!


May 15, 2011

(goofin of while we were cleanin the office) 

(my brother's girlfriend. Cutest thing ever)

 (took a pic of herself)

(leaving dozens of voicemails on our home phone for my dad hahahaha. Fun stuff man)

May 16. 2011

(showin me her piggy at Nina's softball game. Mom's fingers shadow on her face haha) 

(hoppin on one foot for a game hehe)

Call Me

Call me a best friend.
I'll buy you gifts.
I'll hear you cry.

Call me a sister.
I'lll hold your hand.
I'll tell you no.

Call me a missionary
I'll sail the seas.
I'll shower love.

Call me a daughter.
I'll learn to listen.
I'll make you proud.

Call me your love.
I'll bat my eyes.
I'll watch you go.

Project Live: Day 8

May, 12, 2011

So, I totally forgot to take a picture yesterday. I feel so horrible about it. I did enjoy life yesterday tho! So, I'll put one of my favorite pics from the web in honor of a good day yesterday! Here, it is.........

This is from the Jordan Matters Photography website. There's a gallery there that's called "Dancers Among Us" where there are many more fantastic pictures like this. Be sure to check these rad pictures out! You'll be amazed at what you find!

P.S. I think my favorite part of this picture may be that the purse matches the dumpster. I don't know, it's just so cool.

Wordpress :)

So, while Blogspot was being dumb, I created a Wordpress [which goes to show how impatient I (representing society) can be]. My domain name is http://www.thatrachiegirl.wordpress.com/. I'll be putting new people and situations in a prayer list on wordpress (possible thru it's nifty features). But, I'll still be here! I've got a Project to finish anyhow! So, stay with me! But, be sure and check me out at wordpress if you have any time! Thanks guys :) Y'all really are a blessing!