I See So Much Now

Can I have a crush on you?  Is that ok?

Take these broken wings and learn to fly....

Hello, my dears.

Obviously, I'm having a hard time here lately. I.e. the most grouchy posts ever :P

Life is really hard, and it seems to have all hit me at once. This has not been my semester.... When it rains, it pours...

It's been hard to talk to or hear about God, but it's getting easier. I'm beginning to see Him working in other people's lives. That helps. A lot. It helps me believe that He's doing something with me. Something I can't see or understand right now. But at least, I believe now that there is something going on. He is watching. He does find me to be worth something. A lot of people have disappointed me lately. I have been a disappointment too. And I imagined that God gave up, that He didn't really care. But, if He's not good, what is? If I can't look to Him for security, where can I look?

Maybe that's why He seems to be taking everything away from me. Maybe I had more idols than I thought. Or maybe He wasn't my idol enough. I gotta hang on. I know I do.

 Maybe I'll finally understand what it means to have nothing but God. Maybe I'll finally experience his faithfulness and power in a dire situation. Maybe I'll discover a deeper appreciation and love for Him. Maybe I'll find the love of a father, best friend, and a Saviour. A love like nothing I've never known.

Sticks and Stones and Weed and Bones

Hey guys....

Don't preach at somebody when they're down. Especially. ESPECIALLY if you happen to be a person who has hurt that person before. Anyway, but seriously.....

Don't spout off one-liners about God never breaking promises.  Rhyming words, repeating phrases like a salesperson. When you talk to someone. Anyone about anything. Your intention should not be to make your point. Why do people talk to people with other motives? Huh? Why can't people look in someone's eyes and actually understand them? Why can't people see past themselves? People walk into a conversation, write you a message, with one goal in mind. To push their wisdom or opinion on you, all the while, putting up a facade of actually empathizing and seeing your perspective. It's not about you. Them looking good, and saying the right thing is more important than how you're feeling. Don't say you want to help if you actually couldn't care less if they leave you better than they were before.

All you care about is getting the last "helpful" word. Man up and admit it.