Hello, my dears.
Obviously, I'm having a hard time here lately. I.e. the most grouchy posts ever :P
Life is really hard, and it seems to have all hit me at once. This has not been my semester.... When it rains, it pours...
It's been hard to talk to or hear about God, but it's getting easier. I'm beginning to see Him working in other people's lives. That helps. A lot. It helps me believe that He's doing something with me. Something I can't see or understand right now. But at least, I believe now that there is something going on. He is watching. He does find me to be worth something. A lot of people have disappointed me lately. I have been a disappointment too. And I imagined that God gave up, that He didn't really care. But, if He's not good, what is? If I can't look to Him for security, where can I look?
Maybe that's why He seems to be taking everything away from me. Maybe I had more idols than I thought. Or maybe He wasn't my idol enough. I gotta hang on. I know I do.
Maybe I'll finally understand what it means to have nothing but God. Maybe I'll finally experience his faithfulness and power in a dire situation. Maybe I'll discover a deeper appreciation and love for Him. Maybe I'll find the love of a father, best friend, and a Saviour. A love like nothing I've never known.
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